'One-Word'

one-word is such an oxymoron, it represents a single phrase but yet exists as a 2 part phrase...

meh, just random ideas running through my head, also I'd like to give a small portion of the linkin park lyrics to crawling:

"There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming.... confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling....
I can't seem to find myself again
My walls are closing in"

anyways, in other news yes I'm FINALLY back again... my summer has been crazy, I barely have a chance to breath... which is a lot different than what I expected... i had planned for a boring an uneventful summer where i could finally have time to relax and draw... luckily I've had the motivation to draw despite the circumstances, but i haven't had time to do one very important part of the chain... DeviantArt .... so yes, I have a bunch of art to upload and I'll be posting it randomly across the next few days, unfortunately there aren't too many colored pictures... i haven't had time to do that part of my art... so there's almost no digitally colored pictures unfortunately....

more recently though i've noticed that i almost had to re-learn art.... my sketches at first were terrible... even worse than i was before summer started, it was then i realized what i had been doing wrong... and what motivated me to draw more (luckily, it easily could have been the opposite...) *sigh* but luckily I've been working my way back... and I've noticed that my style has drastically changed... and my imagination is slowly fading.... i used to get so much inspiration from all of the picture i found on here, but since lately i haven't had time to check anything on here i haven't had the same inspiration... it's almost like the magic my art used to create is slowly fading.... even my commissions have lost flare... i just hope things don't go any further down-hill... which is why i did keep drawing... well, more recently anyways....

so ya, I'm sorry about being gone for so long... i guess it's true what i had always speculated was true.... real life and the events of this world cause us to lose the magic we had originally dreamed was true.... kinda a depressing note to come back with, but i do hope to change it... I'm at least trying to find that magic again.... and i do hope that i can find it.... hopefully soon too....

but ya, enough rambling... bottom line is that I'll be upload a lot of art quite soon, and I'll be working on commissions and other requests that I have been putting off for so long.... and i hope that you all are still around to help me improve further... and i hope that the joy i had in my drawings so long ago will return.... quite a lot of goals for only a month and a half of summer left.... lol x3